____tear my heart open; i sew myself shut

Friday, March 04, 2005

im home! (: and i am glad im home. think i've been suffering from depression the whole week. had to study for stupid tests! and i panicked over chinese for no apparent reason! shucks. just hope i can score high enough to get me good results. heard i didn't do well in my first module! not one bit! sighh. guess there's no regretting. what's done has been done. i didn't have a great start, so lets just pray that i'll get great improvements! nothing's interesting at the moment unless you count the amount of times i'm complaining during training. its been raining and im glad of that! although it means us running 6-8 laps up and down the HARD corridor which contributes to the problems of my ankle and my calf! ughs. i just want pain to go away. whatever pain there is.

sighs. i just feel not up to standard. not what i should be doing. i think there's seriously something wrong with ME. its either im paranoid or i just love to see myself sad. whatever that is. forget it. i shall look on the bright side of life.

had some parent coach meeting today. was about having a track chalet at east coast! yupps. parents, coaches and trackers. 3 days 2 nights. and ((ahems)) dad is SO annoying! -sheesh. wussup with him man. whatever. had a lift to j8 from nicole's mum. ate dinner there and came back home. yuppies. nothing much to say. yupps. bye

{ tear my heart open }
11:34 pm